If I fall by Merilyn Davies – Blog Tour

A huge thank you to Lydia Spooner for organising this tour and to Random House UK, Cornerstone, Merilyn Davies and Netgalley for a copy of this novel in exchange for an honest review.


A gritty, heart-stopping crime thriller that will have you utterly obsessed.

We were told to meet at a rooftop bar.

Four friends, bound by one terrible secret.

No one knew why we were there.

Then we saw a woman, watched as she fell from the edge and plunged to her death.

The police think it’s suicide, but I know better.

Someone is sending a message.

Now they’re coming for us.

My Thoughts

I’ve literally just finished this book and my head is reeling.  I found this novel intense, heart breaking and dark.  But, it wasn’t really the murders and violence that made me feel this way; the themes explored throughout this book were chilling and raw and have left me bereft and exhausted (I mean all this as a positive from a book perspective).

What initially looks like a suicide sends DS Nell Jackson and her team down a rabbit hole of murder, revenge and suppression.

The plot of this novel is fast paced, intense and has more surprises than a Kinder Egg.  To begin with, everything seems routine and I was lulled into a false sense of this being a simple ‘Who dun it and why?’ scenario but I soon realised it was so much more than that.  I enjoyed how clues and information was given slowly – allowing the reader to digest, process and think about before forming opinions – which are then blown wide open again with the next piece.  Just when I thought I had an idea what was happening, something came along to add in a whole new dimension.    

Without going into spoiler mode, the plot delves into the realms of control and how much of it people can exert.  It’s a study of human nature and how far we can be pushed before we cannot take anymore and is very clever and chilling.  Told mainly from the perspectives of Carla and Nell with the occasional chapter from Rachel (a victim’s wife), the reader gets to see different viewpoints and slowly watch the answers come into focus.

I loved DS Nell Jackson – she’s smart and intelligent but also passionate and human.  Her impulsiveness is both her best friend and her worst enemy.  Carla Brown (civilian crime analysts) also has her own issues to manage but is a calmer and insightful member of the team, thinking a little more out of the box and less like an officer.  Together they are a formidable duo and with their supportive and dynamic team – they work through the pieces of this puzzle relentlessly until reaching a solution.

The first novel in the Nell Jackson series, When I Lost You, is high on my TBR and I cannot wait to read more about her. 

Author Bio – Merilyn Davies

10 things to know about me

1) When I was little, I had a Tortoise called Bannister – after Roger Bannister, the man who ran the first sub-4-minute mile. One winter he went to hibernate and in the summer my dad told me Bannister had woken and decided he wanted to see the sea. I remember looking over the fields into the distance, marvelling at a tortoise travelling that far, and it was only about twenty years later I realised my dad made it up and poor Bannister had died. Anyway, twenty years after that, I programmed Roger Bannister for the Chipping Norton Literary Festival and in the back room of a Methodist Hall, as he waited to go on, I told him the story of my tortoise.

2) I hate macaroni cheese.

3) Every now and again I sneak in another tattoo and hope my husband doesn’t notice. My 17yr old daughter and I bet each other how long it will take him to notice. I won the last one – eight days.

4) The character of DS Nell Jackson is named after the above 17yr old, but they couldn’t be more different.

5) I used to have a nodding toy dog on my desk when I worked in the Met. One day he disappeared. For the following month I got numerous postcards from him, detailing his excursions around London. Turns out the officers I worked with had more time on their hands than they probably would now…

6) I have depression and anxiety. I’ve been on medication for about ten years. I feel lucky when I coast in neutral, good when I’m quite keen not to die but on the days when I want to live, it’s like seeing the beauty in a rainbow for the very first time!

7) My motto is ‘Be Kind, Be Brave.’ I actually stole this from the 2015 film ‘Cinderella’ with Lily James. I heard it and thought, yes, that’s me. I have a necklace by Tatty Devine saying, ‘Be Bold,’ so, in my defence, I had sort of thought of it first. There is also a bit in the film which says, ‘she saw the world not as it was but as it could be,’ and that’s totally me. Never accept what’s in front of you. I’m basically Cinderella and not just because I define my life through shoes.

8) I love Country music. Nanci Griffith is my favourite artist and so when asked who my editor at Arrow publishing is, I always reply ‘Emily Griffith’ instead of ‘Emily Griffin.’ She doesn’t know that though, so…

9) I’m an elected Councillor in West Oxfordshire. When things get heated, other Councillors lean over to me and whisper, ‘will you kill them off in your next book?’ It never gets old and I have a bank of victims ready to go.

10) It took me seven years for Rebecca Ritchie of A M Heath to take me on and another year before I got a book deal. My advice, if you would like it, is keep on keeping on; be kind to yourself, be brave, and read romance novels because their structure is a masterclass in plotting regardless of the genre you write/read in.


  1. It looks like the start of a series I have to pick up!! Great review, I especially loved the line ‘more surprises than a Kinder egg’ 😍 Glad you enjoyed it, Kerry.

    Also I hope you don’t mind me saying – ‘blog’ is misspelt in the title of the post 🙈

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